Medicate with pills and food.
Sleep and read.
Time with the dogs.
Mostly time all alone.
I’ve lost too many people – they visit me while I sleep, sometimes while I’m awake – listening to music.
They haunt me.
My father, sister, husband – all ghosts
I’m a series of diagnosis – PTSD, CPTSD, GAD, SAD, BED
fucking initials that fail to define me
Each day I promise myself (and my dogs) that today will be better.
Each night I pray that the misters stay away.