Did you expect this to happen, for this to be my future? Certainly you could not have predicted that your family would have left me as well. Did you believe that I was really as strong as I pretended? I am not.
It is just me and my dogs now. Everyone else is an illusion, they will pretend for only so long as they need my assistance with him. They will act the part long enough to ease their lingering guilt. But in the end, I am alone.
I always believed, because you told me, that I was strong enough to be all alone. That I was a loner – but no, it was because I had you.
Now I don’t have you. It’s just me and my dogs. Where are you? You promised! I love you and I trusted you. At fifty, such a child still.
Wherever you are please watch over me and make me strong – I need you and love you.
Always your daughter…